My beloved son died yesterday March 2nd from a heart attack. He was 46. I can't help but feel mad and numb at the same time. Why I ask and yet maybe the question should be why not ?We human beings don't want to let go of our loved ones and yet we must .It was his time to go God has him now and I know he is taking good care of him.Some people never experience life the way he did the outpour of love from all his relatives and friend was overwhelming. He.truly was very special and although I will always miss him I know he's happy because he was a happy guy. We are hurting bad this I can honestly say is the worst pain I've experienced in my life.I know life goes on and I must go on for my other children and grandchildren. He will always be in my heart and one day I will be seeing him again and tell him how much I've missed hi.