to my father, Christiaan Timoteus

by HILENI
(NAMIBIA)

It has been five years since you departed this earth, but the pain is still as fresh as if it were yesterday.

I miss you dad
I miss you dad
I miss you dad
I miss you dad


I miss you every single day. There are days I wish I could hug you. There are days I just need some fatherly advise, but I do not have anyone to turn to because the one man I NEED is gone forever. I AM GOING THROUGH SO MUCH RIGHT NOW AND I KNOW FOR A FACT HAD YOU BEEN AROUND I WOULD HAVE HAD THE STRENTGH TO OVERCOME IT ALL.

I MISS YOU DAD
I MISS YOU DAD
I MISS YOU FOREVER


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Oct 11, 2018
Learning to breath again... NEW
by: Hileni

I wrote this exactly a year ago and even though the pain is still very raw. I can truly say that I have accepted the untimely passing of my dad. Getting to this point was not easy, I literally had it out with God. I questioned why my dad had to be the one taken in such a manner. Why did he not accord any of us the chance to say goodbye. it was really difficult and for a good few years, i was in the darkest place I had ever been. By no means was I a daddy's girl...NOOOO....but i was a girl who knew the love of a father. I was a girl who received that love for as long he was alive, and to have that snatched away was a heavy blow to my heart.

Not a lot of people know this, but the last time i saw my dad was on my birthday. I had a looming exam so i traveled back to school on that day. the very last words he uttered to me were " safe travels my child. i love you"...those were the last words he ever said to me. For years i replayed those words in my mind. Wishing that after that we could have exchanged more words, praying that i could have leaned in for hug when he said them.

....BUT I HAVE LEARNED THAT WHAT IF'S ARE NOT GOING TO GET ME THROUGH LIFE. MY DAD WOULD NEVER WANT ME TO LIVE MY LIFE WANTING AND HOPING TO HAVE HIM BACK. HE WOULD WANT ME TO MAKE THE BEST OF WHAT I HAVE LEFT. HE WOULD WANT ME TO CHERISH AND NURTURE THE RELATIONSHIP I HAVE WITH MY MOM AND MY SIBLINGS. HE WOULD WANT ME TO MAKE HIM SO PROUD, THAT WHEN I WALK THROUGH HEAVEN'S DOORS. I AM MET WITH JUBILATION. THAT IS WHERE I AM AT IN MY LIFE.

.....BREATHING AGAIN.

Oct 18, 2017
So sorry
by: Bob

So sorry your father is not there with you.

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