The Loss of Our Son Michael John
by Karen Larive
(ST. Helen, MI.USA)
Our son Michael John committed suicide, Sept.3,2012. I am having the worse time dealing with it. I here the same words from family, and friends, he's in a better place, he has no more pain he's happy! That is not what I feel, Michael is our boy he should be here with us. For him to give up and do this over a woman who cheated on him he had more to live for, his 2 young daughters who loved him and adore, a mother and father who loved him and a family and friends also loved him. Michael was a young man of 37yrs.of whom could walk into a room and put a smile on your face when he smiled he lit the room up. He loved to laugh and make people happy. When we got the call from Florida and my brother inlaw said they had found him my heart wanted to stop all I remember about that call thinking was not my baby! When we arrived in FL. the detective and medical examiner told us he had showered shaved and he was found laying in the bathroom on his knees on a bath mat with his face on the cold tile floor, there were pills on the floor, but they were not what they found in him in the autopsy report, he had taken 30 vicodine, about 25-30 oxycodone and sleeping pills, they say his heart just stopped. I feel if would have been there I would have seen some kind of sign. I pray with Gods help I can get through this I just can't except the way he died hurting and me not there with him. I do know how all of you parents feel there is loss like losing a child no matter the age they are children.