One quick instant

by Debra
(Cleveland, OH )

My son who was 48 years old died on a beautiful sunny Sunday, July 2, 2017, stateside. The family temporarily living in Japan when I got the call he was gone. He never woke up that Monday morning Japan time. They rushed him to the hospital they were unable to revive him. He died had a cardiac arrest. His loving heart stop. The only health issue was found was he had an enlarged heart. My son did a large loving and giving heart. He left behind two children and his wife. I still don't understand why he was gone. He was a twin so thankful I still have his twin brother. I also have a daughter. It is very hard for the family we are so very close. When you one of your children is taken from you. It makes you realize how life can turn on a dime. My life now is in the latter years I am retired with more time to spend with family. Now my family is not the same. I still have a great deal of faith. But I have a new realization of how we need to take each day at a time. The future may not look the way we want it to look with the people we expect to be there. We only have each other at this very moment. I still cry most days and less on others. My heart feels broken but I know my grief is a process. I know I need to take care of myself my son would want me to be happy more than sad. I can see his smiling face all the time. I know we will meet again. But in the meantime, I know I will make it through with the help of God and family and well as friends. Nobody understands how this loss feels unless you lose a child. This loss is different I lost my parents and grandparents. Believe me, this is different. I will heal but I do not think I will ever be the same. All the never's come to mind we never spend any holidays together, we never talk on the phone and much more. But my new self-has a greater understanding of how your entire life can change in one moment until we meet again my son.

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Dec 12, 2017
Debra NEW
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss, for I know how devastating it can be to loss someone you love. But try to remember, in spite of his age. When you cry then he will cry too. for he loves you, and will be unable to comfort you in your grief. He is now home, and in in a wonderful World, and in the bosom of all those who went before him. And he is now waiting on the return of all his loved ones. But in the meantime he will spend lots of time with you on this side. Not one hundred percent of course for he will have lots to do on that side. But you will be reunited with him.

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