My son forever 21!

by Cathy

Daniel Ryan Ward

Daniel Ryan Ward

The phone call came at 5.38am on Jan. 6th 2010. The ringing on the cell woke me instantly.. "call from Tonya mobile" I grab my cell and said hello only to hear sobbing, uncontrollable sobbing. The words will remain forever inbeded in my mind. "Cathy you need to come out here" My first thought was what happened now and I said Why whats up? and then those words "Ryan is dead Cathy, the cops and squad are on their way. I dont remember much more of that conversation my mind was reeling Ryan my son dead? what is she saying to me. I remember sobbing and my boyfriend waking up hearing me crying and not know what was going on and I kept saying I need to get there please someone take me to my son.

Its been 9 months since I received that call and I still play it over and over in my mind daily. My son Ryan age 21 had passed from a overdose of heroin. I am still very angry at everyone involved in his drug addiction, I had no clue he was even using heroin until that day. He was my baby my youngest and he is now gone. I get angry at God for taking him I am angry at myself for not knowing what was going on in his life. I feel sorry for his best friend that found him that morning. I know theres a long road ahead of me because losing a child no matter what age is horrific to a parent.

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Mar 07, 2016

I am so sorry for your loss. The pain and other emotions you feel, I would not wish on some I hated. But I know what and how you. Feel. Six years ago I lost my baby, Aaron RYAN in a freak 4 wheel accident. I have not been the same. To continue.r

Feb 07, 2013
by: Anonymous

strange that i clicked on your story and your last name is Ward, just like our lil one we just lost he is 3, abandoned at birth, and now reclaimed by his father, our hearts are broken, he wont even give us visitation..pray i know our God is good and we just dont understand his plans for us

Apr 29, 2012
I know all to well how your feeling.
by: Anonymous

Unfortunately, I can speak from experience I know how you feel. My son died in June of 2011, he will be forever 20 years old. My son died in home. My other son found him and came to get me (thank the Lord my younger children weren't home at the time). My son had just gotten out of the hospital the day before. He had spent a week in the hospital to get off his prescription medications. I thought he was off them, he died from a prescription drug overdose. Come to find out instead of getting off his meds, one doctor prescribed my son 7 new ones and then released him. There is no greater pain than the loss of your child. I'm still grieving and hurt and still in shock I believe. It's all I think about. My heart goes out to you, cause I do understand and I know the pain you are enduring. God Bless!

Mar 03, 2011
my brother
by: Diane

My brother died of an overdose of heroin 3 weeks ago. His body was found in an abandoned house right next door to where my mother lives.She saw EMS taking a body out not knowing it was her son. He left behind 4 children his youngest child only 7 weeks old. Your'e story has enlightened me to understand what my mother must be going through. The sorrow I see in her eyes kills me. I sometimes wonder if she's given up on life. I too have had feelings of anger and my faith questioned. My mother has her good days, and bad. She says her faith in God's Word is what is holding her. Also remembering my brother's life, and not his death. Just the last time she saw him standing in her kitchen promising her he was gonna enter rehab. Or the times he would go over, and barbecue for her brings a smile to her face. May God's peace be with you. God bless.

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