Losing my Mom means losing myself...
I lost my Mom to a terminal illness on July 6th of this year! We had a year to say our good byes and I Love you's. She was my best friend, biggest cheerleader, my go to on everything. She knew EVERYTHING about me! I now feel so lost without her. I feel like I don't know who I am without HER by my side! I am physically sick every day! I was with her when she took her last breath and it was so trauatic. I didn't feel peaceful about it! I have to be strong for my Dad who also has a terminal disease but find my strength lacking! He is also lost without his wife of 53 years! I can't stop his hurting and it kills me! I need someone to hold me and tell me it will be ok like my Mom always did. I just don't know how to go on. I feel like I am living with my nerve endings on the outside of my body. It is more difficult each day.