Has any one out there ever lost a loved one through epilepsy?
I say "If only" because i know that if I had been there i could so easily have saved my partner like i had done so many other times before. he had so many accidents through this condition, and many times i helped him. But this time i wasn't there.
I knew some how that day on the way home, he was in trouble, because i kept calling him but no answer, and when i got through the door my worst nightmare had happened.
We had so much ahead of us, he was so happy because I was 20 weeks pregnant and expecting his first child. I have never known anyone so devoted as him at being a daddy, and being the most caring supportive man to me.
We were so happy, about to get married and share the joy of watching our child grow up. But one day I came home and found him in our home. I can't describe the pain thst brought me, when i lifted him up and held him in my arms, i never wanted to let go.
I feel so sad i often want to die to be with him, but i know i have his baby due in september so that gived me part of him to hold onto and love and cherish. But it leaves me sad knowing i cant no longer share that happiness with him.
I wish i was old so i didnt have to wait so many years to be with him, because we were both so young and had a happy future ahead of us. Now i feel so empty and alone without him. He is someone i will cherish for eternity,and i will wait to be with him again .