Drinking And Driving Effects People More Than You Think.
Almost 6 months ago i lost one of the closest people to me. In a drinking and driving accident. but instead of being in a vehicle my 18 year old cousin was on a dirtbike.
december 1st 2011 changed my families life forever. && that is when i pushed everyone away. I just wanted to be alone. The loss of a loved one is one of the most tragic and devastating things a person could endure. i felt like i would never be able to be happy again. I didn't believe what i heard. and even after saying my last goodbye, i still didn't believe it.
it took over 4 months for me to start to realize he was not coming back. and that i had to deal with that. I still feel pain every single day. i think about him more than i probably should.. i repeatedly watch a video of him singing. just to hear his voice. so i can feel like he is here.
After he died, i quit talking to most people. i lost several friends because i ignored everyone. no matter what anyone said, and how many sorry's i heard, it didn't help. What i was thinking was a sorry will not bring him back. so many people asked me if i was okay. and i said yeah, but i wasnt. i was not okay at all. i didnt know how to deal with it. i didnt know what to think. i didnt know what to say. all i knew was, my cousin is gone forever. But now i know && realize i may not see him or hear him, but he will always be with me wherever i go. guiding me in the right direction, and helping me make the right decisions.