after my husband died
by dora weller
my husband had an affair 20 years ago, we came through it after a while and never talked about it again, excepy to throw out the odd remark. it wasnt until he died very unexpectedly after a short illness that a few weeks later i found evidence he had a 15 year affair with this woman. i found he had been telephoning her twice a week including while on holiday.
i contacted her to get answers, she claims that the last 6 years were only as friends, and she only saw him a few times a year, i feel that she isnt telling me the truth about their relationship as she previously told me things he told her about our relationship. (that something was missing) and he would never leave me because i was ill and needed him) in the last year i felt rejected when i approached him in a loving way, he just did not respond when i accused him of not caring he told me how wrong i was, and im sure he ment it, i now find myself wondering whether he stayed because he cared enough
for me not to hurt me, but could not walk away from her.
i cant ask him now so how can i ever get the
answers , not knowing how he really felt.i want to speak to her again, but cant face it if she refuses to talk to me . i am constantly obsessed and devistated with the grief of losing him, now this has left me in an emotional mess.